Small Stone for Jan. 23, 2015

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Jan 23, 2015

“…a stroll through a winter forest.” Part of a longer quote from the sculptor, Frederick Remington (1861-1909)

 

 

winter landscape

Stark black bark foregrounds against
the flat white of snow as it clings
to branch and bush and each dead leaf

among the greens of spruce and pine,
above faint track of hare and brush wolf,
perhaps last evening’s stray coyote.

File:Dark-eyed Junco-27527.jpg Mornings, early, there will be deer,
a few dark-eyed juncos, but no bear here,
nor moose. Each creature scavenging,

but the frozen ground yields nothing,
so they don’t stay long. Only the birds
find the feeder, too cold now even for squirrels.

CAS Jan 23, 2015

 

winter forest nature

Small Stone for Jan. 22, 2015

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Jan 22 2015

…dressing up is done whether in imminent danger in an oncoming battle or a sickness or injury at times of peace.” – Wooden Leg, Cheyenne Warrior and Tribal Judge 1858-1940

 

While death is something we seldom joke about, my thoughts are not so dark today, and I was struck by a rather fanciful notion of warding it off. I’ve riffed on the idea of an apple a day helping to keep us healthy.

 

It occurs to me to wonder:
if I take care never to dress up,
might I substitute pajamas for the apple apple fruit

that keeps the doctor safely in his place,
not needing to visit me? Would sloppy
unkempt appearance mean long life?

Or should I always greet the day
in my best dress, makeup carefully done
just in case it is time to leave? lipstick lips makeup

CAS Jan. 22, 2015

Small Stone for Jan. 21, 2015

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Jan 21

…Make me strong not to be superior to my brother, but to be able to fight my greatest enemy: Myself.””—from a quote by Chief Dan George, Coastal Salish, 1899-1981

Winter the last three years at least has been difficult for me, whether through Seasonal Affective Disorder, depression, or just the intense focus I have somehow developed around my health and the aging process. It may be a form of PTSD, since a traumatic brush with death in 2008. I don’t know. Lately I have been taking a more proactive role to try to break the cycle of downward spiral thinking.

depression

Not OMMM, nor phrases in foreign tongues,
my mantra a simple prayer for health of mind,
a way out of the spiral, a walk into white light.

depression cyclone iceland Not the white light of near-death, but of mindfulness,
optimism and contentment. If happiness comes
it will be welcome too. So I must write

on the good days and the bad, look up
to the good in life, and not down into
the dark face of depression.

CAS Jan 21 2015

Small Stone for Jan. 20, 2015

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Jan 20

Today’s reading is about learning the ways of the white man, but near the beginning, this drew me: “I will not bend my back to his burdens.”—Many Horses.

Of course, I am not thinking of this from the same perspective, but it made me consider how often I’ve concerned myself with how someone else makes a mistake, perhaps in syntax, in spelling, or in opinions expressed. In essence, I am adding it to my own burdens, as well as the unnecessary stress that goes along with it.

 

Today, I face inwards to my own demons,
seeking to know how I always find this fear
that overtakes me even before waking.

At the heart there is always uncertainty.
I seek inside for answers to every unknown, yet
this knowledge isn’t within. I can’t Google it either.

Without seeking the right help, I wander, lost
amid stress and confusion, everything reducing
to one question: “What if … ?”

CAS Jan 20, 2015

 

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